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WAS cute. Also shanna and her mom Were There.
weird. Im fuckin
EAP Stressed about my scholarship app and all the stuff i have to fill out Along with it. The Benjamin Gilman scholarship is due in a month and I need two advisors to sign off on it (no idea Who they're supposed to be) as well as write a Project Proposal of Something I'm supposed to do when i get back. .. wtfff. whatever. Everything gonn 'be fiiiine

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How To Build A Colony Rabbit Hutch all the lonely people

 I suppose I could take this opportunity to write about Demi's party and the wonderful hijinks I got myself into, but today I don't quite feel up to it. This morning (afternoon, really, since I woke up at 12:30, went to breakfast, then cleaned the house with demi, then got online) I went onto PostSecret as I always do on sunday mornings and found two postcards that I really related to, more than any of the other ones I've ever read. the first one is more lighthearted, but it's still true to how I think of my career:


the next one is more serious and also really true:


I've never been good at keeping secrets, and I don't plan on making this entry friends-only for that reason, butThe Fact of the matter is That Ever Since the first day I've Begun college, with the exception of Some really good weeks last year, i have felt inescapably lonely and ferociously, and not a day goes by where i think to myself-

I want to go home.

I want to go home. The desert is my home. Cambridge was my home for a while and I liked it just fine, Even Though It Was just as Transitory as this place is, There is just Something about this place That is not, and will never be home. I see the people Who live Permanently her and I feel a deep pity for Them, Because I Would Never want to spend the remainder of my life here. And Then, I call my mom to ask her to send me some Things and maybe to feel a note of sympathy or reassurance, But She Was Nothing But rud

Pregnancy Games Games Do not try this at home

my hand fuckin hurts now i gotta figure out how to use it at work.
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Amblyopia Scholarships break felt way too short,

and with it and it Feels Right to Have It There.)

i loved my first class today, modern short story, the teacher is Such a G and We Do not Have a midterm, final, OR paper, we only Have to write a question and response to 1-pg 'for each class on the ONE short story' for each class meeting Assigned ... niceee! Also Went To That anthro class (human universals) Which Both sounds interesting and wonderfully easy (midterm + final, all true / false, multiple choice, essay no q's) But I dont want to Be Taking 20 units, and more Be itlll Productive to take the ethnic studies class im Trying to get into. oh wellll. gonna try Not to be a debbie downer Already this quarter although i feel my melancholy of Thieves standard in setting lifestyle. cannot wait for the weekend, haaa. too much.

also i've become a coffee drinker/ caffeine-holic and im not sure how to stop now that i've been drinking 2 cups a day (or espresso) consistently for the past 2 weeks... lol. my head hurts from not having any since this morning, ayayayayyy. at least now people wont think im a mormon for not drinking coffee. niiice. well anyway, back to workworkwork
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